so wads happiness?

..........

have been having a bad mood since dunt know when, even shopping and purple cant really cheer me up. damn afraid that i will fall into depression. damn it.

lots of things have happened and i dont really know how to handle it.
may be i have never had the ability to handle wadever thats happening now.

i wished that i have never been here, today, this place, not even one second and i am hoping that time can went back and bring me back to year 1999 and give me another chance to choose what i want.

i should have insist that i want to stay at where i was born and i seriously think that i will suit that place mroe than here.

may be i wont have so much things to worry, i wont have to think of any solutions and i wont have to worry about.................



happniess????
i dunt know whats that.
i dunt know what dose it mean.


i just know that i dont have it at all.


running away.